THE NUMBER YOU CALLED IS CURRENTLY UNAVAILABLE…
ANA BLAGOJEVIC
Why am I so scared? Where does this fear come from? What does it refer to? It almost seems like the fear of something which is not there. However, I don’t want this fear to paralyse me. How do I get rid of it? But can one really eliminate fear? Perhaps one could overcome it? But what am I actually fearing?
I fear death. I am scared of breaking a bone and not being able to walk again. I am scared of losing my mum. I fear a terminal illness. I am scared of not returning ever again. I fear a natural catastrophe. I fear aliens. I fear the end. I fear the routine. I fear instability. I am scared of being carried by the events. I am scared of things not being under control. I fear the void. I fear the downhill. I am scared of what will happen. I am scared of making my mother anxious. I fear failure. I am scared of being too old. I am scared of being too late. I am scared of not having the strength to keep going. I am scared of losing. I fear realising I’m not good enough. I fear being mentally limited. I am scared of not being as good as others. I am scared of starting. I am scared of continuing. I am scared of finishing. I fear loneliness. I am scared of not being an ok person. I am scared of not realising what’s happening. I am scared of not evolving. I fear being fooled. I fear something will happen. I fear not doing. I fear compromising myself. I am scared of not being able to go back to what it once was. I am scared of realising who I really am. I am scared of hating myself. I fear not being able to change myself. I fear looking back and realising there’s nothing else to do. I fear wasting time. I am scared of not being enough pragmatical. I fear being too much. I fear being too little. I fear feeling too much. I am scared of being like my father. I am scared of being like my mother. I am scared of being ignorant. I fear being trapped. I fear letting myself go. I am scared of scaring others. I fear not being able to control myself. I am scared of disappointing my mother. I am scared of giving in to expectations. I am scared of being the reflection of what others theoretically would like me to be.
I fear death. I am scared of breaking a bone and not being able to walk again. I am scared of losing my mum. I fear a terminal illness. I am scared of not returning ever again. I fear a natural catastrophe. I fear aliens. I fear the end. I fear the routine. I fear instability. I am scared of being carried by the events. I am scared of things not being under control. I fear the void. I fear the downhill. I am scared of what will happen. I am scared of making my mother anxious. I fear failure. I am scared of being too old. I am scared of being too late. I am scared of not having the strength to keep going. I am scared of losing. I fear realising I’m not good enough. I fear being mentally limited. I am scared of not being as good as others. I am scared of starting. I am scared of continuing. I am scared of finishing. I fear loneliness. I am scared of not being an ok person. I am scared of not realising what’s happening. I am scared of not evolving. I fear being fooled. I fear something will happen. I fear not doing. I fear compromising myself. I am scared of not being able to go back to what it once was. I am scared of realising who I really am. I am scared of hating myself. I fear not being able to change myself. I fear looking back and realising there’s nothing else to do. I fear wasting time. I am scared of not being enough pragmatical. I fear being too much. I fear being too little. I fear feeling too much. I am scared of being like my father. I am scared of being like my mother. I am scared of being ignorant. I fear being trapped. I fear letting myself go. I am scared of scaring others. I fear not being able to control myself. I am scared of disappointing my mother. I am scared of giving in to expectations. I am scared of being the reflection of what others theoretically would like me to be.
BIO
ANA BLAGOJEVIC I was born in Belgrade in 1988 and live and work in Verona. In 2011 I graduated from the Visual and Performing Arts programme at University IUAV, Venice. I have also studied at Hogeschool Sint-Lukas, Brussels and the school of photography at CFP Bauer, Milan. From 2012-15 I was a member of the photo collective Cesura, as well as assisting Alex Majoli (Magnum Photos). In 2016-17 I completed a residency at Fondazione Bevilacqua la Masa, Venice.
In 2018 I co-founded and co-curator of Såm, an ongoing project dedicated to the visual exploration in the mountains of Lessinia, in the north of Italy. In 2019 I completed the artist residency at Armando Alvares Penteado Foundation (FAAP), São Paulo, Brazil.